Have you ever fallen in love?
Have you held it? Cherished it?
What have you given up in its stead?
Your life? Your passion? Your need for discovery…Everything?
I will not deny that I love to love love…
But as of late, it has sat beyond my grasp and I lie here chosen over by friends and lovers. In this position, I have two choices, wallow in what was and could have been or continue my search for the love within and the world with out…?
I must choose that latter, because there is nothing sadder than waiting for what will never come. It would not be so bad being alone if my life took me everywhere I wanted to go. I have more control over success then love. Besides, I know my heart will sing again, so no big deal. If it doesn’t happen, whatever, but if I am not successful… I WILL DIE (inside).
I am in an interesting place because I can watch “love” as it happens all around me and it’s interesting because I feel little longing as I witness it. What I do see is what I don’t like which helps me pinpoint that which I do. Watching others forget helps you remember…
And that is the value of standing on the precipice of love… it is a vantage point I would never want to lose. I still have sight of my heart’s life desires… that which has always held steady as others have come and gone.
I have been in love, it was always great because I finally learned to listen to my heart… But then I realized she was screaming something much louder and she was telling me to find MY life…
Love will happen and it might be epic (who would deny one who could make a harp of your heart strings?) but I recognize that it is just one element of the story of my life… There is much more to be told.